Christmas Spirit

So since I depressed most of you with my life in my previous post I need to lighten it up. I am so excited for Christmas this year! I love the holiday seasons and all the time with family and friends. I usually have a strict wait until the day after Thanksgiving to put up my Christmas tree.....but this year I made an exception! Just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas! Thanks for all your comforting words and support!

My Heart Is Broken

My heart is broken, but it is being healed and comforted in many ways. We went to our second doctors appointment for our baby and hoping to find out the sex of the baby we were surprised when the doctor found something else..........TWINS! That's right we have identical twins in my belly. Unfortunately one little baby didn't make it and died 3 weeks ago. The doctor said that it had some heart problems and it wasn't developing right. So it is the body's natural way when something isn't developing right. Most miscarriages you don't know what wasn't developing right. Since this baby was 9 weeks when it died and won't leave my body the doctor can look at the baby with the ultrasound and tell me the exact problem. The other baby is perfectly healthy so far and is double the size now of the other baby. He checked for a sign of heart problems with the healthy baby and it doesn't look like it has any! I will carry both babies all through my pregnancy and when I deliver the healthy baby I will deliver my baby that didn't make it too. Because they are identical they share the same yok sac and blood supply so my body shouldn't want to miscarry the baby out of my body. I have to go get checked on by the doctor more frequently so he can make sure the healthy baby is doing fine with the other baby in there. And also that my body is handling the twins well. In the ultrasound I can see both babies. And in every ultrasound from here and until I deliver the baby, I will always be able to see that other baby in my body.

I just started to cry because my whole life I have wanted twins more than anything. I don't have any twins in my family and Dan has one sister with twins. I haven't ever been on fertility so I never thought it was possible for me to get twins. I won't get my twins in this life but I know I will get my twins in heaven. I am glad that the twins get to be together for another 6 months inside of me. And I still get some more time with my other baby too. And my baby will always have a special spirit or little twin guardian angel their whole life. And how amazing is it going to be when they meet again. This experience has been hard and I know it might get harder but it will be worth it when we are all together again. It makes me want to live my life more righteously so that I can make it to heaven with my baby. Things happen for a purpose and the Lord knows why it needed to be. I am so blessed with my amazing comforting husband. The spirit is also a strong comforter right now in my life. I am just so lucky and blessed that I have at least one healthy baby still on the way.

The doctor just kept apologizing that he didn't see the twins at the first appointment. I am so glad that he didn't because it would have been so much harder for me. I would have been so excited and expecting 2 babies. But I have only been expecting 1 baby and I still have 1 coming. So for that I am so grateful. I know this was suppose to happen and that I am suppose to grow through this trial. I am so blessed for my sacred temple marraige and my eternal family. I am grateful that I know my baby is with my Heavenly Father right now and that when the day comes I will go to heaven and see the Lord holding my baby. The Lord will give me a hug and let me hold my baby for the first time!

Sorry this post is so long. It is therapy for me to write this. It is hard for me to talk about and I have been in tears the whole time I have been writing. Thanks for letting me share a very private and hard part of my life with you.

Volleyball Champs! You Know It!

So we just dominated in the Layton City Championship game tonight! Plus we got the ugliest orange shirts to prove it! How hard is it to pick out cute shirts? Obviously they were crazy when they designed these! But the VICTORY is what matters! We have 3 pregnant girls on our team too and we still dominated every team in the league! I love playing volleyball and I am sad that this season is over but we have next season! Don't you think my white pasty legs look so sexy in this picture? LOL.......... I am so embarrassed!

I Am Spoiled!!

So my sweet husband is so good to me. He had a to go to Phoenix for work this past weekend. He had a big convention to go to at this amazing Hilton Resort and he booked me to go with him. So we flew out Wednesday and left the 39 degree rainy weather behind us! We had an amazing suite and we were vacationing in style. I would sleep in and then get up and go to the pool, while Dan woke up and went to the convention and did work (see why I am so spoiled!) He would get breaks in the day when he would come visit me. We would order lunch poolside and have it come to our layout chairs. But my husband did have a blast. He got to golf in a tournament with his work at an amazing golf course in Phoenix. His team got second place and he did really well. Most of all he was just thrilled to get to golf at this great course! Then we had a big Western Barbeque with the convention and it was so fun. It was the whole western setup there! The food, the western town, the music, and the games. They had a draw game, hatchet throwing, chipping, ring toss, roping, and so much more. The barbeque ended the convention and then my husband booked us at another amazing resort in Scottsdale for another night! So we went and rented a brand new ford mustang and drove our car to the Valley Ho resort where again we were treated like royalty. We went to In-N-Out twice while we were there and it was sooo good! My husband was so sweet to me to bring me along. It was really nice because we pretty much used our "points" for my flight, the car, and the resort so it ended up being a cheap trip too! Thanks honey for taking me and for all your hard work! You are the best husband ever!

WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!!

So yes it is official that we are PREGNANT! We are so excited and can't wait to be parents. We had our first doctors appointment last week and we heard the little heart beat! It is so crazy to think that I have a baby inside of me! Our due date is June 11th and I am about 9 weeks right now. No, we don't care what sex the baby is, we are just thrilled to be parents. I am so lucky that I have such a wonderful husband. He is going to be such a good dad and he is SO EXCITED! I am also very excited and scared to be a mom. I hope that I will do a good job, and I am just so thankful that the Lord blessed me with a baby! We will keep you posted throughout the pregnancy! I can also join the blogging baby ticker club! LOL

Here is a picture of what our kid might look like. It is pretty fun to do!

Halloween Trunk or Treat

So on Halloween we went and hung out with our family and went to a sweet trunk or treat! Then we went to my sister-in-law Karrie's house and had a blast. And it was so fun for me because I finally got a new camera! So I can update my blog better now!

My Hubby & I

Shane was a hit with his deer costume!

The cutest nieces ever!


The whole gang!

Brothers being silly

Boys being boys!

Tagged!

Trisha tagged me "8 things" so here it goes!

1. 8 TV shows I love to watch
1. Office
2. Friends
3. Seinfeld
4. Extreme Makeover Home Edition
5. Designed to Sell (HGTV)
6. What Not To Wear
7. Everybody Loves Raymond
8. Jon & Kate Plus 8
I really only have one show that I have to watch and it is on Thursdays...Office. But the other shows are if I am watching tv I enjoy watching these.

2. 8 Favorite Restaurants
1. Famous Dave's :) yummy
2. Good Wood
3. Texas Roadhouse
4. Rodigzio Grill
5. Cafe Rio
6. Chipotle
7. Betos (LOL don't make fun of me!)
8. Red Lobster
Can u tell I love meat and Mexican food!

3. 8 Things that happened yesterday
1. Coached my girls volleyball game
2. Helped coach the other two games, varsity and sophs. (both my other coaches were sick!)
I had to do warm ups for all 3 games and I am so surprised that my arm is not sore 2day!
3. Subbed for music at an elementary
4. Started the 2nd book of the Twilight series, New Moon (thanks Heather)
5. Snuggled with my hubby on the couch
6. Decided the dishes could wait for another day!:)
7. Went to bed early!!! so nice
8. Definitely had a bad hair day!

4. 8 Things I'm looking forward to
1. Halloween
2. Volleyball season to be over (not that I don't love it, it just means the holidays! )
3. Thanksgiving in St. George
4. Christmas with Dan's family
5. Our cruise in January
6. Having a family someday
7. Spending eternity with Dan!
8. For my hair to get long! Ugh....it takes forever!

5. 8 Things on my Wish List
1. A house ( no rush now, we really don't need one and I love my new place)
2. New cars....emphasizing the "new" part :)
3. Have a big family
4. Go to Jamaica in a year or so......Dan u listening???
5. Snow, for snowboarding season
6. A new camera, because mine broke!!!
7. Be a better wife for Dan
8. my life is pretty good I can't think of anything else to wish for!!!

6. 8 people I am tagging:
1. Lori
2. Ashley H
3. Heather
4. Karley
5. Kelsey
6. Megan
7. Jill
8. Brittney